This guy makes me crazy and he shouldn't, I shouldn't let him, he hasn't done anything, it is just me overthinking. I while back I met him, almost 18 months ago, he gave me a wonderful compliment. Was he flirting or was it innocent? He has said he doesn't "butter people up" so I'd assume his compliment was genuine, though that doesn't tell me if he was interested or not. Meet him again, small interaction, maybe flirted, maybe something happened, not sure if it was accidental or intentional. Not sure what to think. Innocent or not? So brief. Why was I so scared to talk to him? Meet him again, goes a little better, I'm not sure he reacted at all this time as everything happened so fast. 

I'm left thinking about him, thinking too much, wondering what everything meant. I know he could view a profile of mine, but he doesn't. He does view others. I think if he was interested he would view mine. And since he doesn't view it he isn't interested. Am I wrong to think this way? Odd thing though. When he hasn't logged into site I get no views on my profile, but when he has logged in I always have a couple of views, all anonymous. Always. Explain that. Am I overthinking things? I don't know what to think. I want him, his attention. And it upsets me that I am not getting it. And it upsets me that I am being like this. Who he is, what he does, the way he makes me act and feel.

Tracker on a second blog I have, had a hit in a recent city that I know he was in on that day. I have no proof it was him or that he even knows about or reads that blog, but if you know my name it is easy to find.

I did also notice that I had a view on another account, one I know he uses, that came from an area that he was in. I can't say it was him or not, but the tracker shows how someone gets there, what they searched for, similar to the footprints here, it was a tag I used relating to him.

How the fuck does he manage to piss me off as bad as he does as often as he does? How is he as stupid as he is? He manages to do some of the fucking stupidest stuff. Did laundry, a couple of clean towels, somehow he ends up taking the wrong one and using mine. Now if I say anything at all, I will get some bullshit line of how he didn't think there was a difference. Except he knows there is and this is the type of answer he gives when he does stuff without care/thinking. I am so tired of his shit, his inconsiderate ways, his patheticness, his "forgetfulness". I so want him gone! I don't care how he is gone from my life, as long as it is soon. I need to work harder on getting my life together to get rid of him. I can't do this anymore.